無題

沒有精彩的人生...

所以很久沒有寫...

2nd day of Redang trip~

Wow... I couldn't agree more... Time do fly!!! It was about 3 weeks ago when I was in P.Redang... and I still miss it... as well as HELP Famine 30 DIY camp... I had my best holiday ever!!! Maybe this is my last holiday... Sad...

Anyway, I think this part 2 might not be as detail as 1st one... because I can only recall so little things...

We all wake up quite late in the morning... and I didn't slept well or you would never get well sleep if the person beside you is the Best Snore-er! My mp3 couldn't cover the snore too... >.< However, I managed to get up early and ate our breakfast before too late... The breakfast was pretty good and way more options and delicious!! I like the toast, Roti Canai, and Nasi Lemak... but we woke up too late... so I can only ate few... Too bad~~

After the breakfast, the "coach" suggested to bring us to Marine Park... I was so excited until we arrived there... Damn!! There are HIGHLY polluted! I barely see nothing... In addition, the died carol cut me for few times!!! I was so disappointed to be frank! The moment there was suffering... we forgot to bring our money and drink... Thirsty...

After we backed from Marine Park, we took lunch and take some rest... SKIP SKIP SKIP... then we were brought to another snorkeling... Zhen and Lian decided didnt want to snorkeling anymore... so it's only me and JS... At first, we reached a spot that full of jellyfish... it's pretty dangerous so we went to another spot... at the time we reached there, we saw there were another resort people there already... so we just decided to snorkel there... I have to say... The VIEW DAMN NICE!!! I love the spot... but we only given limited time only... I could swim far enough... SHiT!! Besides, I got stung by jellyfish at there too... I was so happy when saw a big fish, when I try to swim to it... I felt something like "electric shock" over my elbow... I was shock and try to figure out what was it... Coz I saw nothing there... When I backed to the boat... the boatman tell me what was that... I wasn't the only one who got stung... boatman taught us what should we do like... we shouldn't wash with plain water, apply lemon juice would help, don't scratch it.... After JS knew I was stung... he chickened out... but I just couldn't resist the beautiful sea... Then boatman blow the vessel... it's time to go back...

We took our high tea... the kuih is much more better than 1st day... there were durian cake, and asome other cake... after that, me and JS decided to swim around the beach where El and Lian decided to sleep... I seriously don't know what special in Redang made them so sleepy... Haiz...

Sometimes, people with DAMN LOW self-confidence can kill me... JS know how to swim but he keep ask me did he moved... He did moved... but he gave the WAVE for the credit... haiz... SO... if he read this... YEAH... YOU DID MOVE BY YOURSELF!!

7pm., we backed to our room and they were still sleeping... we took showers and ready for our dinner... dinner is BBQ... but i just ate two chicken wings.. argg... after we had our dinner... we walked around in the beach... the moon was so beautiful... The wave sound is damn relaxing!!

We went to another beach... it's about 4-5 star resort named Laguna... I have to say the situation there is much more different... different pay... different treat... El say if we plan to go next time, sh want Laguna wo... haha... We went to MomoCha house to select souvenir over there... the price is not cheap and I bought one magnet only... because... I really have no money edi... there don't have ATM ar... Sorry friends...

There was a small incident happened after we shopped in MomoCha... Lian was littering and JS and I scolded him for that... Maybe my words kinda harsh to him... he angry at me and said : "Ya la Ya la... you guys correct... I am the one done all the wrong thing" then just walked away... Act cool-nye~

However, I wasn't guilty at that time... because I always said: "I did nothing wrong"... El tried to stop us but too late... >.< After he walked away... we sat in the lying chair and listened to the live band music... I can't really describe the feeling but it is just GREAT and I hope the time LAST FOREVER!!

The time won't stay there of coz... El and I went back to find Lian... He had a pretty good time there I guess... he was talking with a tourist from China... El and I just go to the resort bar... order some drink and talk... we had our good time of chatting and I didnt managed to sing a song to Lian... haiz... but I did enjoyed it!!!

3rd day...

It was a heavy rain in there... It was our last morning in Redang... The boat arrived around 8am... we had our breakfast and ready to go... We off to land about 8.30 morning... I didnt want to leave but no better choice there... >.< Bye Redang...

There is my part 2... lolx... XD

My Redang island trip Part 1

Today is 7 August... Time flies... I was nervous about Redang trips few weeks ago... and now i came back to KL for 2 weeks time already... Wow...

I would like to write this journal long time before... but due to my laziness and also little bit of busyness.. I have at least few time to write about this trip...

This Redang trip spent us 5 years until we really go there... The reason is... we can't match all our time together!! Finally this year... we came out a so-called "policy" among ourselves.... we not gonna match everyone time for trip... for those who wanted to go and at the same time, have something else to do... then they have to choose between trip or their own stuff... otherwise... we not gonna have one single trip if we keep compromising... or else... you plan one... then we join you! Fair enough!! LOLX!!!

This time... I was the planner... AND I was really stress up due to want to keep everyone happy... try to get reasonable price and arrange transport... It wasn't a glad process while you are the one who was planning stuff.. but I did it...

After few struggling, we choose to find back my last time Tioman trip in charge person... he actually just helped us in room reservation and pick a resort... I don't even saw him in the trip... maybe he only take tour in Tioman... anyway... He helped us quite a lot and thanks for his tolerate... we added another friends halfway... after I confirmed with him the amount of us...

The journey started with 6-7 hours crazy car drive!!! I wasn't the driver... my friend Ellen was... She drove her LIMITED EDITION Kelisa all the way long... of coz I wasn't that bad sleep in car... I accompany her all the way just in case I would wake up in hospital... or never wake up... haha... Drive alone would make her suffering alone... so better stay awake with her and talk to her la... ya... longest chat I had... 7 hours... kinda non-stop chat... but we made it... Well it was 4 people trip... 3 of us start our journey from KL and 1 of us was waiting us in Kuala Terengganu already... and he -JS was the one who guide us how to drive there through phone... We did google how to go... but google shown us sort of rural area although it would be faster... but at last... we took JS advise and go according to his guide... which basically tell us which signboard should we go... but I appreciate all the effort he made... he kept awake during dark night and receive our call while he ready to sleep.... haha... how about other friend? TL... he was making us some MUSIC all the way long... and honestly... we kinda try to "study" his music...

We started our journey about 11.45... and reached K.Terengganu about 6 somethings... we try to catch the 1st boat at 8a.m ... and we made it!!! After hang out in JS home... took some picture about his house... YES... we like one who never see house... took some photos in JS room... It was or IS a most mosquitoes rooms I ever in... After hang out in JS house, we drove to Merang Jetty... it's actually 20-30 minutes drive to there... JS was so enthusiastic in show us how K.Teregganu look like... buildings, foods, place to go... bla bla bla... and we were too tired to listen his introduction and shown no interest... >.< It was rude... but we didn't meant it... or at least I didn't meant it...

So... when we were there... we need to find the resort logistic... so that we know which boat would we go aboard... We parked our car there... then wait about 15 minutes...yeah!! on our way to island!!! The whole boat experience wasn't fine... haha...none of us experience seasick... but others do... and god know why... why we looked at them when they thrown up... and we look at their vomit... yuck... that really sick... Not only that... we keep focus on one couple... we made a conclusion --> They must be secret lover... don't ask me why... we just felt it!

It about 45 minutes on aboard... and my friends felt so afraid when we see the wave... it wasn't funny and like stop us to go there... but as you can see this... we survive... and backed from a wonderful trip...

No joking blue sea... although the sea was polluted... but somehow... it is still a beautiful sea... we went to check in and it took us 30 minutes to get one... After briefing about the schedule and activities... yeah... go back to room!! the room was fine... with air condition... and not too far from the beach... no sea sight ?? Ya... low budget ma... It's too early for our first lunch... they decided to sleep for a while and I couldn't sleep so went out walked around and took some picture there...

11am--> We take our lunch... it's in buffet style but the option is really limited!! The food was fine too... at least... acceptable taste la... After lunch... we rent our snorkeling tools and ready to snorkeling!!!

1pm: --> We thought we are going to have a "training" before snorkeling but I was wrong... There are no training and we directly went to middle of the sea... My friends all so worry... included me... coz I don't sure I can snorkeling without fins... because it kinda tired without them... luckily I still able to swim... but my fellow friends... just got a little bit worry... when we reach there... I can't wait to jump down!!! After short briefing... I saw all other jumped in the sea... how can I be slow... then I jumped in too!! JS actually "went" down to the sea before me... but he seem struggling and can't swim out from the boat... he was like stick with the boat... after i took him out... he can actually swim... the problem happened when Ellen and TL came down... I don't sure they willing to share or not... but it was kinda embarrassing moment... and one thing to learn - MISUNDERSTANDING kill people... lolz...

4/5pm: --> We back to island... to be honest... the 1st spot wasn't impressing... maybe I was too busy in taking care my friends... the spot is too deep and we can't see it very clear... but it's a funny snorkeling moment at that spot... we continue our swim around the sea... I enjoy floating and swimming in the sea... So relaxing and relaxing....

6-7pm: --> We went back to our room... tidied up ourselves... took showers and went out for dinner... maybe I was too tired... I actually went back to sleep after the meal... but I actually wanted to walk around the beach... luckily I wasn't sleep too late... still able to wake up at about 9/10pm and walk around...

10-12am. :--> We walked around and look for "Blue Tears" or "Sea-firefly" it's some sort of microorganism... We saw not much anyway... After that... we went to our resort... sat in the lying chair and talk... it was a great night for us to sit over there and relaxing...

Ok... I am too tired to write second day... TO be continue... and this is too long for a journal rite? >.<

紅豆冰の恋

今天去看了城中的熱門的話題 - 初戀紅豆冰~

呃...說真的 以馬來西亞 和 阿牛第一次的作品,
這部電影真的還不錯...

哈哈... 雖然我不是真正的電影咖...
也不會像"專家"般分析
但我也是以個超路人的心態來表示對這部作品的感覺吧...

說真的,
拍過十分鐘的短片後...
再看看專業的電影...
真的自嘆不如啊...
那些專業還真的不是普通的難啊
虧我們看完電影批評得多爛...

一開始對這電影真的還好...
只是單純想要支持國片...
因為聽說阿牛超丟本的..
是部誠意十足的作品...
加上本地真的很少有中文電影上
多少都要去支持下吧!!

說真的...
一開始真的很悶的說...
好像有點特別想去槊造一些童年回憶...
的確感受到了童年回憶...
只是各州對一樣的遊戲有不一樣的稱呼
所以有一些到位, 卻有到不了的感覺...

雖然本地味道是有...
終覺得是刻意做出來的...
畢竟演員都是台灣回來的,中文很正少了馬來西亞的 "啦" "咧" "囉"
而且感覺一小時三十分鐘的好像想cover很多劇情...
有很多人... 有多角戀... 親情,愛情,友情...
說真的...還真得不夠用ㄟ...

紅豆冰在電影裡
是做為一個把主角與初戀連繫在一起的紅線
故事也算是始於紅豆冰止於紅豆冰吧...

這電影還是有感動的地方
無論是親情友情,
還是人生的轉捩點...
都令人感慨萬分...
導演有把一些味道帶出來
也嘗試了少數人用的角度
把本地少為人知的地點
拍得很美很意境

終而來說,
這本地的電影,
的確是部值得一看的作品,
雖然劇情普通,
是部以愛情為題材的電影,
但想用電影回到童年
這部電影還是能做到這點的啦...
而且, 想看看大馬歌手不一樣的一面
這部電影那一座橋梁喔~



"初戀就像紅豆冰,還來不及感受,就已經融化了"
(初戀紅豆冰,2010)

願望

突然...覺得自己該高興還是傷心呢?

開心是因為考完那四張難熬的試驗...

傷心是原來自己剩下兩個學起了...

這個矛盾是始於自己還蠻想要快點畢業,

卻不捨得在學校認識的一班好友...

也捨不得學院的求學時期...

為功課煩惱, 為功課傷神...

唉...這世界就是那麼的...

充滿不捨的心情...

把美好的事物...

短暫地讓人擁有...

然後再把他回收...

不舍歸不捨...

也不可以自私霸著快樂的時光...

家裡還是有人需要升上這個階段...

感受我現在的經歷...

名額有限...

只好退為讓賢了...

苦笑幾聲後...

還是得振作...

把握擁有的

相見恨晚的友情,

光陰似箭的時光,

僅剩無幾的青春,

滿腹滿腔的熱血,

讓剩下的時光增值...

或許就是我現在的

小小願望吧...

Art by Robert and hana Parkeharrison

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偷窺別人的人生

最近常常在blogspot徘徊...看著不一樣的人生... 發現原來我朋友全都是業餘的blogger...真正的blogger上載速度可是恐怖之致...你會覺得為什麼他們可以更新得如此快速...

但是...當我讀完了他們的文章...我就發現了...然後再看回自己的blog...發現原來是那麼一回事... 怎麼一回事?

原來...他們都是會享受人生的人...他們大多都過著充滿回憶的日子...不斷努力嘗試不一樣的人生...以中學生來說...他們不是一昧的上課,下課,打電動... 他們懂得如何去尋找不一樣的人生...參加精彩的課餘活動... 回想我自己的人生... 除了電動...好像也沒什麼值得提起的... 以前曾經墮落過...哈哈... 但也沒有一無所獲的啦...在遊戲的生活也明白自己的角色... 原來從遊戲開始,我就是一個在後面負責援救的角色... 躲在後面幫忙"補血"的人...不喜歡戰鬥的角色... 回正題... 我看見中學生都懂得享受這樣的人生...覺得自己好愚蠢的說...

大學生的生活更是多姿多采了...怎麼像我看見的... 上課工作上課工作的人生... 如果生活是有顏色的話, 我覺得我現在看見的是黑與白...雖然偶爾有灰色...但就是普通卻讓人安逸而不想做出改變... 令人羨慕的人生卻是繽紛的顏色... 犧牲過了就得不回來的東西-時間...換取過了就得不回來的東西-青春... 多麼平等卻值回票價的交易啊... 最重要的...他們可以遇見許多的伯樂或者可以分享的同好... 彼此鼓勵追求自己喜歡的人生!!

反省自己的大學生活...其實真的還蠻黑白的...除了假期難得的旅遊...大多數都宅在家... 渴望別人來圖彩自己的人生...真的很諷刺...明明自己有手來為自己上色,卻給自己太多的理由不嘗試... 覺得這個顏色太鮮豔,不適合自己...覺得那個顏色太陰暗了,不喜歡... 到後來還是在黑白的人生... 繼續給自己一大堆的理由來說服自己的懶惰是應該的...

發現自己其實也有東西blog的時候...是為自己生活添加味精的時候...也是感觸最多的時候... 有疲累的酸, 又開心的甜,有害怕的苦,又精采的辣... 像在WAD的時候...疲累卻多麼精采啊... 像tioman的時候,害怕卻開心到~ 多久沒有嘗到那樣的味道了? 很久了... 都在過著白飯般的生活...

其實自己在羨慕著人家的人生時... 也給自己很多藉口來安慰自己... "別人有錢,生活沒有顧慮"等等... "當然可以趴趴走啦" 但事實並不是如此的... 是自己太過放縱自己,不去尋找人生...才落得現在只有羨慕的份!!! 距離畢業才剩八個月...英文說的 "It's never too late" 好吧!!是時候放棄自己現在的生活方式...尋找自己要的生活吧!!!

Eavesdrop in Mc.D

Ok... I kinda suck in blogging... My mind got alot of things but dunno how to put them in word... and my frenz said u blog like u want to submit assignment deadline... I hv to admit it... bcoz the previous trip assignment... kinda like assignment one... hehe...

Well... I blog it today bcoz... I saw a quite touching scene today... I kind of easily moved but here is the thing.... I do found this is quite touching to me...

Imagine u go to a stranger country for work... the work is 18hours and probably above yet, the salary is lower than u should be paid...you probably have to learn how to read people face first because when things go wrong, u are the one who to be blame. As a foreigner... you had seen as lowest level in the society... everyone look down on u and may think negatively to ur work and ur personal life. No one understand why you want to stay here to work... they just think u might be illegal and a threat to them... they think you are the one who should be blame when crime happened... they accuse u something that u might not be do... Worst... u might be assaulted by employer physically and psychologically...

Ya... I was talking about foreign maid, or mostly in Malaysia is from Indonesia i believe... Anyway... the imagination above is just a bad example and what we always read in news... it seem like really normal phenomena which maid had been abused, sexually assaulted, or you name it...

However, today... I saw a kinda "warm" scene... I saw a old couple brought their maid go to McD. for lunch... and they just sat beside me... before that... I tot the maid must only sit there and watch the old couple eat... surprisingly(or not)... the uncle actually bought a meal set to her and with ice cream to her... ok... what had moved me is... we heard a lot of bad things that how the employers treat maids and also some news about what had maid done to employers... but when i saw they sit together like family... i feel like ... ya that is the one i like to see... ppl treat ppl equally and well regardless any status u are... I saw the maid was so happy and eat the ice cream like how a kid got his ice cream... then the uncle ask her to eat the burger 1st... and she listen to him... then i saw the auntie ask her enuff or not... then give the maid her french fried... (yes... i was alone there so i got nothing to do but eavesdrop other conversation) They seem like a family rather than employer and maid... of coz i can see still a boundary there la... like the maid need to carry things...

SO... i was thinking... if the abuse things go so common d... then why the newspaper still like to publish those common things... that why I like to read the good news rather bad news... every Sunday... there are a small portion from the news is talking about good things... ya... i prefer to listen to them... that make my day enlightened and happier rather to read how ppl treat ppl badly... hmm... maybe i try to go away from"REALITY"

LAST... good to that maid for being in such good working environment... I believe a good working environment will make up the salary stuff geh... like a frenz of mine... lolz....

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M2 trip 2

Well.. I don't know what I had wrote in previous post... but it's ok... blog is always like this... write what come to your mind... isn't it?

Well... about the trip... I have to say... at first... I totally don't know we would be going to Muar/Johor to look for JS friends... not that I mind about this... It is just rather a shock more than surprise... anyway... that doesn't matter already... at least... I go to Muar again after my auntie marriage which held in Muar also.

If I can recall correctly... we were quite excited when we were heading to Muar. We kinda hungry and I quite expect what JS keep recommend... Otak-otak... hmm...

On the way we go to Muar... we took quite a lot of photo... but there are a lot of meaningless and blur picture coz we have only use phone camera because we didn't bring it... here are some of the picture...

Muar's Petronas
Muar's Giant.. ya... we were acting like kampung boy
Muar's aunt and uncle
Kinda like the concept of Muar = "Muar" in Hokkien.
We actually went to this temple while we are waiting JS friends...

Anyway, we didn't take much picture there... and we was like spent most of time at Muar and JS friends were nice people and tried to bring us to everywhere that most tourist would go... although I have to say it's not appropriate for this such hot weather. But I indeed thanks to them for introduce us all the places and also the food... and they spent their time to a bunch of ungrateful strangers. I think we owe them a big thanks!

After we separated with JS friends, we went back to Malacca. We went to the river where near the red house, which I can't recall the name, and we pretended we were the tourist from China and listen how the guide introduce the places to us... and I have to say... they are good in that... We just walk around there and enjoy looking at the people around there... ya... we kinda like observer. I knew that I was there while I am 4th grade, there changed a lot and start getting commercial.

After that, we walked to place where supposingly a lot of foods there, however another finding in Malacca... they won't give up any chance for rest and they close their shop very early - like 9pm... Should I say... the night just begin... So, we have a lot of hard time about looking for food... we took about 1-2hours for walk and we get nothing to eat... actually we did... but they are bad or worse... So, how we settle the dinner... we went to Dataran Pahlawan... for A&W... shame to admit that we having fast food in other states...

TBContinue...

M2 Trip 1

As JS ask... I changed the name of this post to M2... due to some reason...

Well... I have to say... This Chinese New Year wasn't the bad one and I kind of enjoy the celebration... Well, I have to say I NEVER not enjoy CNY... Every year the days I always expect is CNY, coz this celebration always give me a sense of happiness and enjoyment!! The period that me and family welcome "God of Prosperity"... The moment we everyone get the free permission to stay so late and the street still lively!! The union dinner with family, with friends and bla bla bla... Sometime, just can't get why people not like CNY or tend not to celebrate it besides take CNY as just another public holiday...

For this year, my friend and I actually do not have any plan to go any where... because our boss are busy with his "business"... He start work at Day 3 and Day 4 and then free for another 2 days... That why we think, there are no point for us to go anywhere without him... we are that united... haha...

However, we still maintain our culture... which is not have any plan to go somewhere... rather we just go where as we like and when we are available... So, we actually decided to go Malacca less than one days before the trip... and one of things that I think we so "geng" is we still able to find hotel...

This trip was 2D1N trip... it is not enough for me actually... haizz... however the trip was still full of fun.

To be continue trip...

Movie Review

Ok... I should actually write my 500-1000 words movie review rather than spend time to write blog... yet, here I am...

Well... Thanks to Dr. Goh... I watched some movies that I would never want to watch until Dr. Goh show it to us... Cinema Paradiso, The Killing Field... and also because influence of Dr. Goh... I watched another awarded movie name Adam too... All of these movies are inspiriting to me and I would say influence me so much...

Cinema Paradiso is the 1st Italian movie I had ever watched... This movie is kinda long... about 3 hours and with original audio (i believe) Italian... I thought this is simply a romantic movie until the end of the movie... the climax of movie is almost in the end of the movie... I would say this movie is worth to watch (with non extended version coz it's kinda long for me)... The movie have some screens that make me laugh and also would let me cry(if I watch at home alone... sure I will)... Yet, I can't simply enjoy the movie... bcoz at the same time, I need to think about how should I do my assignment... and I found myself hard to differential watching movie for enjoyment at the same time I need to work my assignment regarding the movie... Coz when I watch the movie... I didn't jot down anything I should write down...

The second movie - The Killing Field still linger in my mind... especially the union screen and many violence screens... It's is a great movie and awaking Anti-war movie... This movie able to move me and I do enjoy watch a movie that I never want to watch... (I don't like War movie...) In addition, this is a true story... not the fiction that people make up to entertain people but a reflection of people life... I was thinking that if I was here... I don't think I would strong enough to survive... and I really think that any decision is important... each decisions would affect you differently... or maybe even take your life... Like the movie... at the life and death moment, one person life actually depend on a tiny passport size photo... You need to be smart to pretend you are stupid and pretend you are not educated...

The Killing Field movie is worth to watch too and I totally agree with this movie won the Academy Award... The experience of the main character (or supporting character according to the award) - Dith Pran is really cinematic and extraordinary... and he is actually one of the survivors (I believe some of the people do survive at last) of Vietnam genocide... Few years ago, I used to hear about the war and there is a museum that collected skull of the victim of war and The Killing Field now is one of the travel spot for tourism...

After I watched the movie... I google the war... and I found out that the communist would kill anyone if they like to... some simply get executed, some been executed bcoz cried when their relative was executed... educated one, or simply wore a glassess... How could human being do such thing... Kill human being like destroy grass...

OK... That all I would say... and Thanks to PSY317... I should not have "Bias" toward old movie or "boring movie" that I thought i was...

31/12/2009 post

Hohoho.... Today is last day of 2009 la... 2009 passed very fast... Damn fast!!
and this post is simply want to leave the last post on 2009 la... hahaha!!

Erm... suppose to write what happen during 2009... but... want to play game la... so... mayb next year la... hehehe!! Anyway, hope 2010 would be a good year and the plan (haven't come out yet) will be able to achieve!!

Hahaha... Bye 2009!! You are good boy!! So sad have to say bye to you!! T_T

Welcome 2010... Hope you treat me well... erm... or maybe you should treat me well ya!!! Happy New year!

World AIDS Day 05-12-09

I confess... I should study rather than blogging... but I just want to blog it... Hahahaha...

Today, I joined a big event which KLASS and MAF organized it... World AIDS Day 2009. This is my second times in participate WAD event as volunteer...

Erm... This year, unfortunately... I can only participate for one day which is today... and this event will keep go on until tomorrow... Ya... It's kinda sad that I can't join for both day and make me feel like I done something incompletely... Well, never mind la... put aside the sadness and "desalinate" it with tomorrow night dinner la... Hehe

Well, after I joined 2008 WAD, I felt I learnt a lot from that and make me feel wanted to join next volunteer work, and yes... this year I joined lo!!! Last year, I kinda feel shame and afraid of approach to public... and this year, after what had I gone through in this one year, I find myself comfortable with approaching public and yes... I am no more rely to my other group member!!!

In this event, I was in charging in outreach work, which allow me to go around, wearing mystery mask, and sandwich board that sending out the message about HIV... yet, I don't think I helped a lot la... haha... Because I just simply walk around and ask people to hug me, in the condition that they thought I am HIV positive... I feel a little bit sorry for deceived them, but I would like to thanks them for willing to hug me, and that actually show support to HIV patient... indirectly!! So for the person who hugged me, thanks for your support ya!!! By the way, while I was walking around, when people look at me as real HIV carrier, they show me a discriminate look and I can really feel that I had been discriminated... that is hurt... So, now I really can feel how is the feeling of being discriminated... that is so hurt man...

I am HIV +ve, Hug?

Well, I have to admit that I did nothing much other than what I mentioned, coz i hang out quite a lot with Game section there... Bcoz friends at there mah... and I found myself have fun at there... not that I was not having fun at outreach, but at least I can chit chat with "Auntie" rather than just have few second to promote our activities... So, have to say sorry to my team member from Team 7... Haha... They did a lot work in outreach... and sorry I left out quite a bit or more than a bit...

Team 7 member

Other than that, we actually play a role as audiences, which I think most of the time, the audiences are volunteers. (ops... I not suppose to say it out???) I don't think that is a bad things la... because organizer have they own issues to deal with... so... And honestly, I think all volunteers are such a good, and supportive audiences!! Give ourselves a clap!!! Yeah!!!

When you wear mask, you will become Idol of children, becoz they tot you are batman^^

Overall, I find myself enjoy in this event... making new friends... and our friendship is tested... while I forgot to bring my wallet... Yng keep say want to lend me her money... with condition 10 out 13 back... Such a good friend right?? I was moved!!! Anyway... I am proud of myself that I joined this event and glad that I know some new friends there... It's really nice to meet you guys!! Hope I can still join this kind of voluntary work next time... I like this kind of event more than earn money...

Nice to meet you guys^^

And for someone who read this before 6th Dec. 2009, the event is still running until 6th Dec. ... So, please go there and join them because tomorrow morning, our former Prime Minister Dr. Mahathir will be there for open ceremony... and noon will have mini concert... who would miss a free mini concert right??? Hehe...

Universal Access and Human Right!!! Stop AIDS, Keep the Promise!!

Use Condom, Keep away from HIV!!

Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry, NeGan NeGan NeGan Bajio

Another Negative Energy blog...

I start wondering what the meaning of SORRY...
Yea... people ask me to say sorry... which I don't think I should be the one who should... Haha...
Yea... I am so damn stubborn one and childish... but people don't know me...
Of course, I can say sorry to one individual which completely not sincere at all to get thing solved... but do you think the thing would get solved? Yea... Temporary... next time thing happen again? Boom... Sorry again lo... Now SORRY seem like a tool to use, more than a sincere apology...

People always wait others to take initiative to say sorry rather than they say sorry first... That's true... and I used to be the one who took the initiative too... If you ask me what I got?? I will tell: "you get another chance to take the initiative." This become a behavior already... even you are not the one who should... you should... because people think you are wrong, that mean you are wrong... you don't get a chance to stand for yourself... You should say sorry... The most ironic thing is... I should apologize about what... "I am sorry about you blame me for the thing that I should not be blame, so sorry... please forgive me..." Good idea!?? Ok Ok... to be fair enough... you also get your friend back la... And you may also get multiple personality disorder too... hahaha... the last one is not true la.... =P

I do think friendship more important, but when you gain a friendship but you can't protect yourself or you need to hurt yourself... don't you think this is quite similar with a girl say she want to kill herself to get her boyfriend back??? Ermm... I do think that is a bad example though.... You may get together again, but how the relationship... is it you remove the boom or just delay the boom timer?

"You should love yourself so that people love you" or "you should lost yourself so that people love you"... Now I need to double check it... People want a sincere Sorry or "Social" Sorry? Hmmm....

Positive energy come to me... come to me... Next blog would be happy thing!!!

Friend...

#####Notice####
This is post with NEGATIVE energy...
Don't read if you don't want to ruin your happy mood

This maybe the 1st time I post the blog which talk about the conflict that i had with my friend, i always try to avoid and let other know about this, especially friends that we share because

1. people take side when conflict happen between 2 people...
2. Or people don't know which side should they stand
3. People don't care much...

Well, the conflict sound very small business to other... but for me this is very big issue that I think I should deal with...

This happened one month++ ago, and yet we still haven't solve it out... because no one is taking action to step out the 1st heavy step...

After this conflict happened, I tried to think of a win-win solution so that I don't lose my dignity and problem get solve... yet, after few times of sharing with friends and other methods... I found that win-win situation is hard to reach and it's not easy... because somehow, I will lost something and I think I have nothing but that only...

EXPECTATION... have to admit that I have high expectation on friend, because I used to thought how i treat people, people will treat me in the same way... yet, i didn't get credit or what... I do know we can't expect when you help people, people will help you back... Maybe... this is the time for me to change this perspective... The belief I have from starter... actually is wrong... I should think that way... So... maybe I need to learn how to be altruist and no expectation from friend.

I can't see how much they try to solve this problem, because all this way, I think I am the one who try to solve this problem rather than just avoid it... On the way I back to home, I think How should i type an apologetic message... but i didn't send it... When opportunity is there, I tried to voice out and get opinion from third party... yet, i didn't accept most of them... SORRY...

So, from the whole journey that I look for solution, I can't see they actually try to solve this problem... I feel like I am so lonely... For me. maybe they just worth to fight for, and for them, I am not worthy enough to fight for... and nothing seem lost for them...

Now... I am feel so tired already... I don't want to spend my time to think about solution and all those stuff already... I am exhausted, disappointed, denying and want to give up...

So, I put everything here... hope I won't carry those thing out from this daily... my friend say... let fate decide all the thing... maybe this time... i should do what he told me...

Tokyo Magnitude 8.0

Ah... It's 2.40am... I still can't sleep... maybe I slept at 5pm and wake up at 8pm just now... ==

Anyway, that's doesn't really matter to me... because I always can't sleep at night so decided to blog here...

Recently, I watch quite a number of anime, yet only one anime that caught my attention and make me late for class== which is Tokyo Magnitude 8.0... This anime really worth my tear... This is one of the few anime that make me so touching, actually this is the one that make me touched and cry so hard...

Actually this anime caught my attention long time ago, but i didn't get chance to watch it... Until recently, I decided to watch this and yes... I was addicted to this anime, even this is only 11 episodes.

Basically, this anime is talking about Tokyo have 8.0 level(?) earthquakes and make Tokyo in mess... A sister (Mirai) and her bother (Yuuki) went to robot exhibition and they are trapped in Daida... and they wanted to go home and meet with their parents.... a stranger Mari help them and send them home, this is how the story begin.

Besides the touching story, the other best of the anime is the product team actually did many simulation and research on what actually if this earthquake did happen in real life, so, we can actually see how severe is the earthquake cause in quite real way... of course, hope this would never happen...

Yet, when I was watching this anime, our neighbor country Indonesia was actually happened earthquake I want to say such a coincidence but that is bad and I hope they would get well soon, and able to stand up again...

Anyway, just want to share a good anime and I recommend to all!!! ^^

For some reason, I feel moved every time I see this poster... T-T

Good bye ShinChan... 新ちゃん さようなら。。。

Since we lost MJ and Yasmin... Now we lost another genius of the world... Yoshito Usui... I think most people may don't know who is he... he is author of famous comic Crayon ShinChan...

Yesterday, while my mom was watching her favorite show... then got preview of news... I saw the title of Crayon Shinchan Author dead... I was shocked and feel so sad really bad...

I believe all people around my age know who is ShinChan... This comic actually accompany me for whole childhood day... actually included my sister's childhood... Our family all like this show and now... we gonna say good bye to this comic... a comic accompany us for so many years...

When I was primary school age, I always ask my dad buy this comic for me... everyweeks go to the shop and expect new episode of Crayon ShinChan until I was form one... yet, I still watch some episode but I really stop buying the comic already and think the comic is so boring...

Yet, few months ago or many last year, I bought 48th episode of this comic again all by sudden... and I found the story line start to be different... Yoshito sensei start add some sad story inside and that really touching one... I really think he is very genius... he can really make me laugh like crazy to cry like crazy...

Until tomorrow, I don't know Yoshito sensei actually was missing from 11th September... yesterday... the news came out and shocked me... According to some forums, they say Crayon Shinchan is going to be end at 51st episode (recently 49)... I feel so sad that I can no longer see ShinChan again... because he and his family/friends are one part of my life... they brought me a lot of fun and now it's time to say good bye...

Anyway, as human... we always need to say good bye to someone... So... good bye ShinChan... and Yoshito sensei... hope you rest in peace....

Negative force

I still remember my lecturer used to ask my class... "Do you believe in night will create bad things?" That time, i quite agree with the statement... because I used to be in the situation that night cause me more sad and feel so alone...

The truth is... Yes... Night or dark really attract devil... Scientifically prove had given for the statement... but that all my lecturer told me... and I didn't really dig more deeper...

In addition, I think negative force is something like flu... It can spread to others easily...

Tonight... erm... I should say just now... I went to have supper with my friend... He like a person with don't have anything to worry for me... but then today he seem tired and I think something really bother him... but he wouldn't tell me what happen on him... and to be honest... what he say maybe a lie... because he have never show his weakness to us... and always announce good news to us and keep bad news for himself only...

Before I meet with him, I am really in good mood... few days ago, I got money from no way, the next day I found I got extra RM40++ in my pocket... and then some old friends call me in the same night... make me feel really good!! Then after meet him and listen what he had told me... I just feel same like him... worry and moody...

In sum, I want to think more positive right now!!!! I am lucky and continuing the luckiness!!! Come on friend, cheer up!!! Hope your problem get solved soon and later!!!

Be happy everyone!!!! We deserve happy life!!!

I am not a sale person!

This 2 days... I had been quite boring days..
1st... really thanks to the company that hire me as Part time sampling promoter... I know my performance sucks but...

Ya... this 2 days I worked as Ice cream promoter.... Well... This is something new to me... because this is my 1st time to be promoter and could be last time...

I saw many kind of people... the one I hate the most is greedy one... Some people, they can take 5 same flavor Ice cream and they still ask for more... I used to tot they will give to their family and then I saw they eat right the way and then throw there... = =

Well... in these 2 days I learn quite many things like how the hyper market work... and other things that I don't know how to say = =

In short, this 2 days... I really ==... and I know I am 100% not in the sale / promoting area... Because I am not that kind of person who feel satisfy about how much I sell but I think I feel more satisfy from other thing like when children say thank you to me... ==

Ya... I am not a sale person... ==