Friend...

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This is post with NEGATIVE energy...
Don't read if you don't want to ruin your happy mood

This maybe the 1st time I post the blog which talk about the conflict that i had with my friend, i always try to avoid and let other know about this, especially friends that we share because

1. people take side when conflict happen between 2 people...
2. Or people don't know which side should they stand
3. People don't care much...

Well, the conflict sound very small business to other... but for me this is very big issue that I think I should deal with...

This happened one month++ ago, and yet we still haven't solve it out... because no one is taking action to step out the 1st heavy step...

After this conflict happened, I tried to think of a win-win solution so that I don't lose my dignity and problem get solve... yet, after few times of sharing with friends and other methods... I found that win-win situation is hard to reach and it's not easy... because somehow, I will lost something and I think I have nothing but that only...

EXPECTATION... have to admit that I have high expectation on friend, because I used to thought how i treat people, people will treat me in the same way... yet, i didn't get credit or what... I do know we can't expect when you help people, people will help you back... Maybe... this is the time for me to change this perspective... The belief I have from starter... actually is wrong... I should think that way... So... maybe I need to learn how to be altruist and no expectation from friend.

I can't see how much they try to solve this problem, because all this way, I think I am the one who try to solve this problem rather than just avoid it... On the way I back to home, I think How should i type an apologetic message... but i didn't send it... When opportunity is there, I tried to voice out and get opinion from third party... yet, i didn't accept most of them... SORRY...

So, from the whole journey that I look for solution, I can't see they actually try to solve this problem... I feel like I am so lonely... For me. maybe they just worth to fight for, and for them, I am not worthy enough to fight for... and nothing seem lost for them...

Now... I am feel so tired already... I don't want to spend my time to think about solution and all those stuff already... I am exhausted, disappointed, denying and want to give up...

So, I put everything here... hope I won't carry those thing out from this daily... my friend say... let fate decide all the thing... maybe this time... i should do what he told me...

Tokyo Magnitude 8.0

Ah... It's 2.40am... I still can't sleep... maybe I slept at 5pm and wake up at 8pm just now... ==

Anyway, that's doesn't really matter to me... because I always can't sleep at night so decided to blog here...

Recently, I watch quite a number of anime, yet only one anime that caught my attention and make me late for class== which is Tokyo Magnitude 8.0... This anime really worth my tear... This is one of the few anime that make me so touching, actually this is the one that make me touched and cry so hard...

Actually this anime caught my attention long time ago, but i didn't get chance to watch it... Until recently, I decided to watch this and yes... I was addicted to this anime, even this is only 11 episodes.

Basically, this anime is talking about Tokyo have 8.0 level(?) earthquakes and make Tokyo in mess... A sister (Mirai) and her bother (Yuuki) went to robot exhibition and they are trapped in Daida... and they wanted to go home and meet with their parents.... a stranger Mari help them and send them home, this is how the story begin.

Besides the touching story, the other best of the anime is the product team actually did many simulation and research on what actually if this earthquake did happen in real life, so, we can actually see how severe is the earthquake cause in quite real way... of course, hope this would never happen...

Yet, when I was watching this anime, our neighbor country Indonesia was actually happened earthquake I want to say such a coincidence but that is bad and I hope they would get well soon, and able to stand up again...

Anyway, just want to share a good anime and I recommend to all!!! ^^

For some reason, I feel moved every time I see this poster... T-T