Friend...

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This is post with NEGATIVE energy...
Don't read if you don't want to ruin your happy mood

This maybe the 1st time I post the blog which talk about the conflict that i had with my friend, i always try to avoid and let other know about this, especially friends that we share because

1. people take side when conflict happen between 2 people...
2. Or people don't know which side should they stand
3. People don't care much...

Well, the conflict sound very small business to other... but for me this is very big issue that I think I should deal with...

This happened one month++ ago, and yet we still haven't solve it out... because no one is taking action to step out the 1st heavy step...

After this conflict happened, I tried to think of a win-win solution so that I don't lose my dignity and problem get solve... yet, after few times of sharing with friends and other methods... I found that win-win situation is hard to reach and it's not easy... because somehow, I will lost something and I think I have nothing but that only...

EXPECTATION... have to admit that I have high expectation on friend, because I used to thought how i treat people, people will treat me in the same way... yet, i didn't get credit or what... I do know we can't expect when you help people, people will help you back... Maybe... this is the time for me to change this perspective... The belief I have from starter... actually is wrong... I should think that way... So... maybe I need to learn how to be altruist and no expectation from friend.

I can't see how much they try to solve this problem, because all this way, I think I am the one who try to solve this problem rather than just avoid it... On the way I back to home, I think How should i type an apologetic message... but i didn't send it... When opportunity is there, I tried to voice out and get opinion from third party... yet, i didn't accept most of them... SORRY...

So, from the whole journey that I look for solution, I can't see they actually try to solve this problem... I feel like I am so lonely... For me. maybe they just worth to fight for, and for them, I am not worthy enough to fight for... and nothing seem lost for them...

Now... I am feel so tired already... I don't want to spend my time to think about solution and all those stuff already... I am exhausted, disappointed, denying and want to give up...

So, I put everything here... hope I won't carry those thing out from this daily... my friend say... let fate decide all the thing... maybe this time... i should do what he told me...

Tokyo Magnitude 8.0

Ah... It's 2.40am... I still can't sleep... maybe I slept at 5pm and wake up at 8pm just now... ==

Anyway, that's doesn't really matter to me... because I always can't sleep at night so decided to blog here...

Recently, I watch quite a number of anime, yet only one anime that caught my attention and make me late for class== which is Tokyo Magnitude 8.0... This anime really worth my tear... This is one of the few anime that make me so touching, actually this is the one that make me touched and cry so hard...

Actually this anime caught my attention long time ago, but i didn't get chance to watch it... Until recently, I decided to watch this and yes... I was addicted to this anime, even this is only 11 episodes.

Basically, this anime is talking about Tokyo have 8.0 level(?) earthquakes and make Tokyo in mess... A sister (Mirai) and her bother (Yuuki) went to robot exhibition and they are trapped in Daida... and they wanted to go home and meet with their parents.... a stranger Mari help them and send them home, this is how the story begin.

Besides the touching story, the other best of the anime is the product team actually did many simulation and research on what actually if this earthquake did happen in real life, so, we can actually see how severe is the earthquake cause in quite real way... of course, hope this would never happen...

Yet, when I was watching this anime, our neighbor country Indonesia was actually happened earthquake I want to say such a coincidence but that is bad and I hope they would get well soon, and able to stand up again...

Anyway, just want to share a good anime and I recommend to all!!! ^^

For some reason, I feel moved every time I see this poster... T-T

Good bye ShinChan... 新ちゃん さようなら。。。

Since we lost MJ and Yasmin... Now we lost another genius of the world... Yoshito Usui... I think most people may don't know who is he... he is author of famous comic Crayon ShinChan...

Yesterday, while my mom was watching her favorite show... then got preview of news... I saw the title of Crayon Shinchan Author dead... I was shocked and feel so sad really bad...

I believe all people around my age know who is ShinChan... This comic actually accompany me for whole childhood day... actually included my sister's childhood... Our family all like this show and now... we gonna say good bye to this comic... a comic accompany us for so many years...

When I was primary school age, I always ask my dad buy this comic for me... everyweeks go to the shop and expect new episode of Crayon ShinChan until I was form one... yet, I still watch some episode but I really stop buying the comic already and think the comic is so boring...

Yet, few months ago or many last year, I bought 48th episode of this comic again all by sudden... and I found the story line start to be different... Yoshito sensei start add some sad story inside and that really touching one... I really think he is very genius... he can really make me laugh like crazy to cry like crazy...

Until tomorrow, I don't know Yoshito sensei actually was missing from 11th September... yesterday... the news came out and shocked me... According to some forums, they say Crayon Shinchan is going to be end at 51st episode (recently 49)... I feel so sad that I can no longer see ShinChan again... because he and his family/friends are one part of my life... they brought me a lot of fun and now it's time to say good bye...

Anyway, as human... we always need to say good bye to someone... So... good bye ShinChan... and Yoshito sensei... hope you rest in peace....

Negative force

I still remember my lecturer used to ask my class... "Do you believe in night will create bad things?" That time, i quite agree with the statement... because I used to be in the situation that night cause me more sad and feel so alone...

The truth is... Yes... Night or dark really attract devil... Scientifically prove had given for the statement... but that all my lecturer told me... and I didn't really dig more deeper...

In addition, I think negative force is something like flu... It can spread to others easily...

Tonight... erm... I should say just now... I went to have supper with my friend... He like a person with don't have anything to worry for me... but then today he seem tired and I think something really bother him... but he wouldn't tell me what happen on him... and to be honest... what he say maybe a lie... because he have never show his weakness to us... and always announce good news to us and keep bad news for himself only...

Before I meet with him, I am really in good mood... few days ago, I got money from no way, the next day I found I got extra RM40++ in my pocket... and then some old friends call me in the same night... make me feel really good!! Then after meet him and listen what he had told me... I just feel same like him... worry and moody...

In sum, I want to think more positive right now!!!! I am lucky and continuing the luckiness!!! Come on friend, cheer up!!! Hope your problem get solved soon and later!!!

Be happy everyone!!!! We deserve happy life!!!

I am not a sale person!

This 2 days... I had been quite boring days..
1st... really thanks to the company that hire me as Part time sampling promoter... I know my performance sucks but...

Ya... this 2 days I worked as Ice cream promoter.... Well... This is something new to me... because this is my 1st time to be promoter and could be last time...

I saw many kind of people... the one I hate the most is greedy one... Some people, they can take 5 same flavor Ice cream and they still ask for more... I used to tot they will give to their family and then I saw they eat right the way and then throw there... = =

Well... in these 2 days I learn quite many things like how the hyper market work... and other things that I don't know how to say = =

In short, this 2 days... I really ==... and I know I am 100% not in the sale / promoting area... Because I am not that kind of person who feel satisfy about how much I sell but I think I feel more satisfy from other thing like when children say thank you to me... ==

Ya... I am not a sale person... ==